Recently, Time magazine wrote a couple of articles about the causes of autism. I thought the articles would explore more in depth what goes on in the minds of autistic children, but it just barely touched the surface. I am constantly looking for books that can tell me what is going on in my son's mind. How does he think. Some days are so difficult and I sometimes can't separate whether he's just having a bad day or his autism is getting in the way. I will be the first to admit that I don't always handle him very well. I try very hard to accommodate his needs, but it's so exhausting to always remember that he is the one who has to open the car door and stop the music. Some days he can just let it go, but there are others where it just sends him into a tailspin. On those days, it's easy to just turn the car back on and let the music start up again.
We made the decision to homeschool to give Brother the best opportunity possible. Is it hard? Yes. Is it worth it? A resounding yes. He is flourishing. We take it slow. There are some days when he has worked hard at therapy and we do no formal schoolwork that day. I will read to them. I do know that he is learning. At times it seems he is not paying any attention to what I am saying or reading. It has brought me no amount of frustration to think he does not retain a single thing I read or tell him, and then he does this:
This is his version of Jesus and the 12 disciples. I don't recall reading or telling him there were 12. He may have heard it at church. The point is that he is learning and I don't think he would have been able to at school. There would be too much stimulation.
I adore his drawings especially because until about a year ago he would refuse to draw anything. This is a masterpiece.