I was looking through my email inbox for an email from about 2 years ago. I'm awful about cleaning it out. I couldn't find it, but found a whole bunch of the notifications I receive whenever someone comments on my blog. That led to me think about the evolution of my blog. The commenters were people I admire greatly for a variety of reasons. I realized they don't comment on my blog as much. I wonder about that. But, my blog hasn't been interesting. I am just rambling here. Please forgive me.
I've dropped off in many things but not in any of the unproductive things I do around here. It's almost a kind of lethargy. I was able to trace it back to a certain point: my first miscarriage last March. I've already passed the first anniversary which was really quite hard. A friend has been helping me as much as she can by making me think. Losing Mark devastated me even more and I'm still working through it.
I don't know where I''m going with this. I do know I want to blog more. I do know I need to develop more discipline. I do know that I've been terribly obssessed with having a baby. I do know I need to be more present for my children especially as a hard 12 months will be upon us. Do I have a plan? No. The first is to get my exterior (house, rooms, etc) organized. Then, I can work on the interior.
I'd appreciate prayers.